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A. A. Kostas's avatar

Thank you for sharing Nick. My heart goes out to your brother and whole family.

As an eldest brother whose youngest sibling is just shy of 26, I can imagine how you are feeling, at least a little.

Keep the faith, draw near to God as He is no doubt drawing near to you all.

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Nick Chapman-Jones's avatar

Thank you Kostas

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Ali Noël's avatar

The entire last stanza brought tears to my eyes. I know that feeling all too well. I’m the eldest of four — the responsibilities of which have always been dear to me but, my goodness, it is difficult sometimes.

I am so sorry for what your family has gone/is going through. I can only imagine how hard it’s been. I’m also the eldest of all the cousins on my mom’s side of the family, and we’ve always been very close. My cousins, Chase and Adam, died unexpectedly within 18 months of each other a few years ago, and it’s difficult to put into words the toll such grief takes so close together. Your poem captured it perfectly, here.

I’ll be praying for comfort and miracles beyond understanding. Thank you for sharing!

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Nick Chapman-Jones's avatar

Hey Ali, thank you so much for your comment, and your prayers - you're very kind.

I'm glad I was able to capture something you could feel, and thank you for sharing the difficult story of the passing of your cousins. Naming them here, remembering them, even in this small corner honours their memory and place in the story of you and your family.

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mskfb's avatar

This is a beautiful line: "Our weighty moon dragging this burdens behind her".

Very evocative.

You are a good brother, and a good friend. You are doing all you can, and more than many could.

Peace, my friend.

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Nick Chapman-Jones's avatar

Thanks brother

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Soala's avatar

No problem Nick. Very beautiful piece

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Kate Susong's avatar

You've captured the pain of waiting and loving. I cared for my mother-in-law during her final illness (we will pray your brother survives this to have distant final days), and I'll share my tragicomedic essay with you here. https://katesusong.substack.com/p/shes-dead

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Nick Chapman-Jones's avatar

Thank you Kate, I'm glad I was able to convey those feelings, and for the prayers. I'll read your essay, thank you!

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Bence Ádók's avatar

This is just exquisite. A long time since I had read a poem as beautiful as this. Great job

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Nick Chapman-Jones's avatar

Bence - thank you! This is a wonderful and kind comment I will treasure.

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Soala's avatar

I can't imagine what you're going through. Your little brother... So sorry, man. I pray God gives you all strength, and I pray that life is kind to you in these moments. This is my favourite poem of yours.

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Nick Chapman-Jones's avatar

I forgot to respond to this Soala; thank you! I’m glad you liked it so much.

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